Thursday, December 8, 2016

Dear Society

Dear Society,

Thanks for portraying a life that only 1% can have
Making the dream seem easy to achieve and yet making it impossible to rise above my failures
Thanks for expecting me to be the "normal" that I will never fit into
Thanks for speaking for me
The voice I have is subject to be muted and edited for societies sake
You're fake
Pawning off smiles and handshakes when you're crossing the fingers behind your back on the other hand and planning your wars
Telling me it was okay to embark on following my own way but telling me I was at fault because I couldn't find an occupational pathway financially supportive enough
But you want me to be tough 
Carry the weight of the worlds issues
I would like to unsubscribe 
While you create lies to justify your imperfections 
You're chipping away at my foundation and yours grows stronger
Can't let it
Won't let it
How can I not be consumed when you're embezzling the funds- -the people 
Where is the church, where are his true people?
Disguised, misinformed, and stagnated 
Oh but the likable, the pretty, the dumb flourish 
They win
They always' win
What's fair, you get to decide
Truth is beaten, bloody
And fake is hoisted up on the shoulders, paraded around, honored
Shallow enough yet?
Skin deep dedications will began to sag and wrinkle eventually 
With a lot of unsaid this is my thank you

Thursday, September 1, 2016

PSA: Letter To You Sir

Dear Douchebag at Walmart that forcefully shouted out the word NIGGER at checkout twelve this morning,

I understand that you were mad. I understand that you were frustrated. But you don't say that in public. You don't say that in secret, you just don't say that period. With the increasing racial injustices culminating to the surface we don't live in a time where shouting out the word NIGGER is okay. I have anger issues, I get anger, but acting out in ignorance is not what you should do to express it. This isn't about the word and meaning for me as much as it is about humanity's lies of being of a higher intelligence when I'm seeing such uncontrollable people walk about saying ignorant things, killing people when ever they want, and raising an entitled generation of ungrateful little beings. As pessimistic as I can be I don't see this world with rose colored glasses, it's getting farther away from perfect, closer to chaos, and the cloud of doom is getting heavier and heavier. Is it the unlearned simple lesson of thinking before you speak the culprit? I don't know, but sometimes people really need to learn how to just shut up, that your opinion is worthless and that silence is its own language. I didn't stay silent when the man shouted out what he did, but he did quickly walk way embarrassed when he saw me glaring at him. "I understand that he's ignorant." I told the Walmart workers who he had been venting too. The man's situation was something about he lightly tapped someone's car or something and the guy called him a name that was derogatory as well but, BUT, does that give him the right to rave loudly in a public place and yell out NIGGER? Regardless leave your drama for home, and act accordingly in public, preferably like you're not an ignorant douchebag as I perceived you to be. Now this man maybe be a church goer, a good person on any given day. He may be a doctor, lawyer, who knows, but in that five minute rant that ended in the word NIGGER being shouted you were none of those things sir. You weren't a loving husband, a caring father, a big brother, but you were in your truest form, an ignorant human being that needs to be taught how to correctly conduct yourself in public and learn to just shut up. 

Thursday, August 11, 2016

Bottoms Up



Bottom seems so low
Bottom personifies an ending
Or does it?
Does it end here?
Or does the well have a way up
An out, a light in a well is a way out
An out, a light in a well is a way out of the bottom
An out, a light in a well is a way out of the bottom, out of the dirty hands of memories that drain your soul, and take root
An out, a light in a well is a way out of the bottom, out of the dirty hands of memories that drain your soul, and take root, it's a clean hand that remains waiting alongside hope and faith
An out, a light in a well is a way out of the bottom, out of the dirty hands of memories that drain your soul, and take root, it's a clean hand that remains waiting alongside hope and faith, where bottom is, is exactly where we need to be because there is an out, a light in a well is a way out of the bottom, out of the dirty hands of memories that drain your soul, and take root, it's a clean hand that remains waiting alongside hope and faith to pull you up, clean you and set you to run
Just don't take the out for granted because you may not get another one

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Summer Time







SUMMER IS HERE EVERYONE!!!!
I REPEAT, THIS IS NOT A TEST SUMMER IS HERE!!!!

Yes summer is here, time for parents to take back looking after there children that they've pawned off on the school system for the last ten to twelve months. Yeah little Jane and Johnny are all yours again parents, what are you going to do with them? Well depending on what type of parents you are there are quite a few options.



Option 1: Day Camp
Funny enough my dad used to run my local counties day camp, my brothers went, I did not. Day camp is fun. Your kids can stay active, meet new friends. However I don't know if all day camps feed your children so may still have to send a lunch with them, but then again day camp isn't as costly as my next option.

Option 2: Sports Training Camp
So recently I've learned more about children being sent off to sports training camps for basketball, football, and others. I think that's great, the kids are active, they're staying prepare for upcoming seasons in there specific sports, and they're gaining an edge. Major colleges are holding these weekly camps and it's great, but costly.

Option 3: FEAR(ForgetEverythingAndRun)Let them fend for themselves   Independent Study
So independent study is something that parents who have children that are old enough to look after themselves. Usually these parents give there kids the money and hope for the best. With independent study children can learn a broad spectrum of things, like swearing, sex, theft, evading arrest, how long candy will keep you feeling full. But hey, you're an independent learner kid, man up, woman up. Join in with some friends, form a gang group patrol accost the neighborhood, be one with nature.

Bonus Option 4: DON'T HAVE KIDS!
Parents around the world are cracking under the pressure of having to be more involved with there children on a daily basis. I've been in the middle of children and parent melt downs recently and I feel sorry for both the children and the parents. But during those seven to eight hours a day where parents are at work, children are at school, those of you who are of appropriate age they don't have to deal with one another. And that's sad, because that's how the world has made it to be. While parents have to work long hours to afford and provide for there families they're having to miss out on spending quality time with there children, knowing who they are. I work in an environment with suburban raised children who are provided with the best of things, but I never see them with there parents. I've said it before and I'll say it again, being a parent is more than just providing, it's way more, and if you can't provide the MORE, DON'T HAVE KIDS!


I'm just being funny, I hope everyone has great summer, be safe enjoy it.


Sunday, June 5, 2016

A Month To Remember

Not so much a moment to remember for me
Because I never forget
But let's exhibit our worlds
A mingling of words, a misuse of circumstances
It's where our paths met
And where we stand at
But frequently pass it
It's a misguided ploy to accomplish painstaking joy
But no one wants joy that way
What's the point of joy without pain?
Would you even know it without pain?
No
But want it so badly, say you need it
Would you give anything for it, some have, will, won't
But still taking care of hearts that melt like chocolate in pockets and hands
Will it matter in the long run?
Will it make a difference?
No, probably not
For small moments we stand for something because it hot, it popular, but not because we really feel it
We stand for gimmicks and characters not truth
We stand for all world and expect the world to treat us fairly
Well the world isn't fair
The world isn't nice
It's the world and it is a character itself, an entity that is ruled by higher forces than what we can ever imagine
But we think we have the power, we have the truth
And we don't
We don't humble ourselves enough to be honest
We don't seek learning like a baby does, trying things over and and over, becoming frustrated seeking love from our mothers and fathers, reassurance and then trying what we failed over again. . . .to fail. . . again
What's the difference between that baby we were and the adult we are today?
Not much, we just have more constructive ways to propel our emotions, better ways of expression of ourselves than babbles and cries, whines and tantrums
Not much is different as we grow up, the rollercoaster we are birthed onto is never at a straight and narrow path for long and we either have an up hill glide or an down hill fall but one thing is for sure
it will be a month to remember

Friday, March 25, 2016

New Generation

         Get ready for the next generation to be extremely divided. This is strictly my opinion, the current upcoming generation is either going to be extremely great or extremely horrible, their is no room for the gray. Are parents solely to blame for the snowball effect of the current generation? I don't know? Perhaps? But more and more parents are younger, still children themselves, before being forced into growing up and relying more heavily on there parents, the childs grandparents to "help" them raise there own children. More and more I'm seeing grandparents become parents again, to there grandchildren, weighed down with regrets and reminders of how they failed to raise their son or daughter well enough. That guilt creates two scenarios, either they are very relaxed in there raising of their grandchildren or very strict. I don't know whether the fear of failing again in raising a child breeds that or not? 
        The current generation seems to be very informed with pointless stuff such as Instagram, and Twitter, and Facebook, but can't remember the thirty minute lesson in algebra class. Situations such as watching an eight year old not be able to tie his shoes and his mother having to do it for him, and watching children mimic what they saw on TV instead of the parent or guardian the are being raised by, leads me to question whether it's just a priority issue on the side of the parent or guardian. 
        I know "mothers" that wear the title of "mother" and have relinquished the characteristics of the term "mother" completely. Her priorities revolve around when her mother, the child's grandmother, can come and pick up the grandchild so she, the "mother" can go party. Keep in mind this "mother" is twenty, still a child herself, having had her child at fifteen. To me her priorities are skewed, having a child doesn't make you a mother, but the investing of you love does, not love of convenience but love of sacrifice. 
        Sacrificing, a parent to me is someone who loves there children with sacrifice. At the elementary stages children go to school and are yearning to be one thing, liked. It's simple to want to be liked but if a parent doesn't nature that child and help them understand that there's more to the world than to just be liked, then what happens? Could that child grow to become a self sacrificing people pleaser, allowing people to walk on them? But some younger parents of the current generation want to still have there separate lives while still being a parent. I don't know if that thinking can exist in a healthy way? Not for this generation anyway. 
       Currently I am not a parent, I somewhat question if I could be one currently with all that I see going on in the world. But I see the current generation of children becoming more unintelligent, sedentary, and content. Schools are doing away with actual books, the new make of digital books being sent directly to your tablet, smartphone or whatever has taken over. But the best thing you can ever give a child is a library card. Imagination is something that can take you places even when you don't have money, and books harness that. Summer time was my time to be taken to the library to pick out books. At the time I was a child and didn't really like reading, mostly because I didn't find the library selection interesting, so what did I do about that? You guessed it write? Pun intended. I began to write, creating my own stories, using my imagination. If my parents hadn't made the accessibility of books a priority for me I don't know where I would be.
        Being that my father was a PE teacher, being outdoors and moving was a part of my upbringing as well. My father used to take me on bike rides and on tours of museums, we would walk or ride for hours. Now my want to do those things is still in me, to explore different things and also to get off my butt and move. The major health institutes have estimated that if the slope of children who are fed poor diets high in fats and live sedentary lifestyles keeps increasing the majority of the population of children will be diabetic. More specifically Type 2 diabetics. I understand what it's like to be the fat kid, I also know what it's like to be the kid who used to be fat, so it comes at no surprise that this current generation is at such a risk. However, parents now have to work full time jobs, often times may find it hard to cook a meal, so fast food it is. 
        Back to the eight year old boy who can't tie his shoes and his mother does it for him. On both sides of this situation I see content, the boy is content with not having to learn to tie his shoes, and his mother is content with tying his shoes. But here's the thing about being  content, while its comfortable it causes stagnation. Maybe as a parent there's a want to love your child, and maybe you can love them so much that its harmful. Personally I know the feeling of growing up without parents. There's a forced independence you acquire that makes you grow up and mature faster. For the child who is old enough to tie his shoes but doesn't know how to because his mothers has always' done it that could make him more than your typical momma's boy. It could make him dependent upon other people in an independent, out for themselves world. This generation is destiny for something, but I don't know whether it's greatness or not so much, that is yet to be determined. 

Wednesday, March 9, 2016

Beyoncé To Kanye





So wonderful
Positive vibes
Love is a wonderful thing
But I'm all about hair 
All about looks
But being this pretty hurts
But let me count down
Your my destiny child
But I don't think your ready
But Jesus walks
This is my graduation
A direct representation of 
When it all burns down
But I'll spit it through the wire 
Fire and brimstone 
But I'll forever be known as a college dropout