Oh No That Item Has Been Discontinued

I don't know if anyone does a spending tracker on things like caring, patience, or things like that but I do. It's the end of the month so I've drained my care fund down to nothing and I'm thinking of taking the funds with which I would spend on patience and buying a new Coach bag because it's a better investment than people. Living the life we live is great for most, you build relationships with people, friendships but sometimes you grow apart. We all have different experiences and some are blessed with more good experiences, while others suffer and endure worse. That's what makes us who we are, but then we have the issue with who we believe ourselves to be, versus who we truly are, versus what we show to people, and then we round it out with people's perception of the person we show to them. I'll use work as an example, unless you're your own boss you can't possibly be yourself at work, if that was the case I would be quiet and work on my knitting, exercise, read and write all day, and watch Netflix but I can't do that because I can't be myself in my work environment. Think about it, how many people know the true you other than God? Now how many people know only what you want them to know, and how many people know you based on the person you've had to become to survive? It's great to be free and live life but if only it were truly as easy as it sounds. And maybe for some it is that easy, but for the other percent that wake up each morning surviving and not living I commend you. I used to live a life where I lived to pacify others, I actually enjoyed people, but us---- human beings are such horrid creatures more than they are pleasant ones. It's an ugly truth that I think we all hide, even your generous and cheerful of people have an unpleasantness. I don't know when we as a society changed to being so lazy, stupid, and hateful? It makes me not trust anyone because from what I've seen everyone has a hidden agenda or use you to get to the top themselves, more concerned with there own personal pleasures and joys than the persons with which they suck dry and use to build there own power. No one wants to hear the negativity, or be labeled a pessimist but we don't live in the times of positivity anymore. And maybe the fact that we faked that positivity and sweep negativity, and truth under the rug so much has caused the destructive society we have today Just look at the news, any act of kindness now is spotlighted in the media like its so great, how about taking it as something you should do since you should be a good person to all people, but oh yeah we don't live in that world anymore, my bad. Now I'll admit that I'm a bit jealous of most peoples lives because they seem to have had a lot more freedom than I have had. I'll take the blame that I structure my life because I know my life and how it works (I wrote a blog about it) and it's left little room for pleasures or joys living in that box, but it's kept me pretty level considering. I watch people walk around aimlessly, stupid, unaware taking more time to decide on what they want to eat than they do about more serious matters such as where the better schools are for they children so they can receive the best education. I read an article about the psychology people who hate people, it's called misanthropy

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Misanthropy the general hatred, distrust, or disdain, of the human species or human nature.

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The article explained a lot about people who hate people, it's not so much of they hate people but it's deeper than that. CHECK OUT THE ARTICLE!!! It's a bit more personally based than a generalization. As I've said before I used to like people but that view has changed tremendously for me, because I have such a high standard for the people I surround myself with that only the elite survive. I also have to add my short or lack there of level of tolerance for people, I'll admit I've spent the money I would have bought more tolerance with on MMA fighting gloves but that's besides the point. What I'm saying is the items that more people are wanting from me lately have been discontinued, it's the special brand that I used to use and now I can't find it anywhere, so please read the caution before discussing stupid stuff with me, because you will either receive a vague response, a thumbs up emoji, silence and a side eye.

That is all, lol.

Oh Because You Know Me So Well?

Hm, uh uh, well let's go ahead and put this out there. 

Have you ever experienced judgements from people who are dead on about who you are? Okay, now have you ever experienced judgements from people who think they know you and are completely wrong? Okay, I'll be blogging about the later. 

Situation is a person made some comments about me that they believe are true when in fact are completely false, this person is of course a complete scholar(taste the sarcasm) and has known me inside one environment for a total of 1 week.

Yes people it's possible to learn everything their is to know about someone in an structured environment and in one week. Forget about all the psychomumbojumbo about human complexity and such just base it on this persons reasoning. Here's the reasoning are you ready? "Your face says' it all" okay I'll give it to you Dr. I Can Read Non Verbal Cues, but that really doesn't work for me when my resting face is what you consider my "angry face". I'm not running around with a fake smile plastered on my face sorry. Not only do you have me pegged that I'm always mad, but I hate everyone. I don't hate everyone, the majority or people are just annoying like you and like to try to pry into people like you deserve to know it all. 

You don't. 

Secondly, I'm not always mad but the fact that you can't do easy mundane task like sign where the bright red X is on a piece of paper is really irrating and causes me to dive further into giving up on mankinds ability to have critical thinking skills. Or have the knowledge and understanding to not touch hot items with your bare hands. But you're a scholar, and your thinking is so heightened that perhaps you can't be troubled to recall the basics of such a behind world?  I don't know, but I know that in a week we became best friends and although I know nothing about you, you some how used your amazon prime account to rush ship the book on me. And judging by your avid use of urban dictionary words and twerking jargon I believe that you indeed did complete the entire book in a week. Good job, you get a gold star.