Watered Down

Shut up dread in my head

Lie instead

Show the meadows and rainbows 

Not the crooks and murders

Show the sunshine and clouds 

Not the rains and lightening 

Because showing the truth is hard

So keep it light please

They want people like me to shut up and be silenced

The news shows what's trending and you're a fool if you buy it

There splitting hairs but you don't care 

The news portrays a good dream but it's really a nightmare

I'm not scared but it's all written it's all there

They're not going to like you but hate you, because you go against what they believe

Because honestly you don't have to be great to achieve, at least not anymore 

Look at music and you'll find that current talents are by far mediocre 

Now a days walking down the street is a crime but keep protesting and parading for your rights 

Stay on the never going to win it fight

Truthfully I didn't see the answers clearly as I do right now 

The worst thing, as important as it is to Love

Forgotten and fabricated by most what we think is Love happens on the fourteenth of February, or on certain timeline post

Stop posting that crap please, you're a joke

Humanities view of love is so minute

It's true, true Love is written in the book

It's vividly describe as unconditional, non boastful, and never ending

But we put a price on it, boast about it and cut it off

This worlds foundation is crumbling, it's almost afloat 

Since most don't realize it by choice because there "love" is what matters the most 

Stupid

Close minded 

Not to mention blinded

While the truth floats off you wave goodbye to it while you stand on sand that's quick to change and be blown away

Stand on something worthy

Honest 

Love

Stand on that raw emotion of Love

The Love the one the guy who came down forty some generations talked about

The Love that built this world 

Stand on that instead of some over processed garbage that we imagine for ourselves 

Stand

Oh No That Item Has Been Discontinued

I don't know if anyone does a spending tracker on things like caring, patience, or things like that but I do. It's the end of the month so I've drained my care fund down to nothing and I'm thinking of taking the funds with which I would spend on patience and buying a new Coach bag because it's a better investment than people. Living the life we live is great for most, you build relationships with people, friendships but sometimes you grow apart. We all have different experiences and some are blessed with more good experiences, while others suffer and endure worse. That's what makes us who we are, but then we have the issue with who we believe ourselves to be, versus who we truly are, versus what we show to people, and then we round it out with people's perception of the person we show to them. I'll use work as an example, unless you're your own boss you can't possibly be yourself at work, if that was the case I would be quiet and work on my knitting, exercise, read and write all day, and watch Netflix but I can't do that because I can't be myself in my work environment. Think about it, how many people know the true you other than God? Now how many people know only what you want them to know, and how many people know you based on the person you've had to become to survive? It's great to be free and live life but if only it were truly as easy as it sounds. And maybe for some it is that easy, but for the other percent that wake up each morning surviving and not living I commend you. I used to live a life where I lived to pacify others, I actually enjoyed people, but us---- human beings are such horrid creatures more than they are pleasant ones. It's an ugly truth that I think we all hide, even your generous and cheerful of people have an unpleasantness. I don't know when we as a society changed to being so lazy, stupid, and hateful? It makes me not trust anyone because from what I've seen everyone has a hidden agenda or use you to get to the top themselves, more concerned with there own personal pleasures and joys than the persons with which they suck dry and use to build there own power. No one wants to hear the negativity, or be labeled a pessimist but we don't live in the times of positivity anymore. And maybe the fact that we faked that positivity and sweep negativity, and truth under the rug so much has caused the destructive society we have today Just look at the news, any act of kindness now is spotlighted in the media like its so great, how about taking it as something you should do since you should be a good person to all people, but oh yeah we don't live in that world anymore, my bad. Now I'll admit that I'm a bit jealous of most peoples lives because they seem to have had a lot more freedom than I have had. I'll take the blame that I structure my life because I know my life and how it works (I wrote a blog about it) and it's left little room for pleasures or joys living in that box, but it's kept me pretty level considering. I watch people walk around aimlessly, stupid, unaware taking more time to decide on what they want to eat than they do about more serious matters such as where the better schools are for they children so they can receive the best education. I read an article about the psychology people who hate people, it's called misanthropy

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Misanthropy the general hatred, distrust, or disdain, of the human species or human nature.

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The article explained a lot about people who hate people, it's not so much of they hate people but it's deeper than that. CHECK OUT THE ARTICLE!!! It's a bit more personally based than a generalization. As I've said before I used to like people but that view has changed tremendously for me, because I have such a high standard for the people I surround myself with that only the elite survive. I also have to add my short or lack there of level of tolerance for people, I'll admit I've spent the money I would have bought more tolerance with on MMA fighting gloves but that's besides the point. What I'm saying is the items that more people are wanting from me lately have been discontinued, it's the special brand that I used to use and now I can't find it anywhere, so please read the caution before discussing stupid stuff with me, because you will either receive a vague response, a thumbs up emoji, silence and a side eye.

That is all, lol.

Are You For Real Man?

When I run into people I went to school with usually they're doing well, but every once in a while I hit a head on collision with the one's who have physically changed and mentally stayed the same. The other day while at work I ran into a high school classmate that I used to be friends with my freshmen and sophomore year. He looked older, super older, like aged far beyond where he should be. But he came in looking for a job, which was cool I'm down to try to help any body looking for a job, but as I started to talk to him I realized that he still has a do nothing, I'm too good for this mentality. He didn't sound like a person who needed a job, more so like his arrogant freshmen self. Are you serious man, has your mentality not changed at all? Have you not grown up? It took all that was in me to keep it professional because honestly he needed to be told the honest truth of why he's probably jobless in the first place. If you've never come to a place of being jobless or down on your luck in life you can't understand how it will humble you(I've been there). That every little ounce of pride that we hold onto and cloak ourselves in isn't for others it's for ourselves, it's self denial. It's pride that makes arrogance and it's pride that will keep you in the same broke state you're in while arrogance prances around like its big and bad while your true self shudders in the corner thin, frail, an dried up. That classmate didn't get the job, he unfortunately denied by the company. But honestly I don't think he would have stayed that long if he had gotten the job let alone had a good or even decent work ethic about working the job period because he's still the same arrogant little boy he was in highschool.